Why I Chose To Do Nothing This Summer
How is everyone's week going? Mine has been pretty easy going. It has been nice to take this summer off and just focus on blogging and whatever else I feel like at the time. Taking off the summer to not do internships or jobs or anything might seem crazy to some, but for me it was necessary.
I was soooo tired of being told what I "should be doing". I feel like we are constantly fighting against what society tells us to do. Just because it is good for some people doesn't mean it is the only way. That is how I felt about doing an internship this summer.
All throughout undergrad, I did every internship, every volunteer opportunity. I joined every committee possible. It was great and I learned a lot, but I had just had enough. Why do I have to keep proving my worth by having the best and biggest internship? Why can't I have time to live my life and understand who I truly am?
I really needed this time. I needed to have time to focus on me. To understand who I am and what I want to do in this world. I think that sometimes when we go to college we get caught up in the competition of being the best. "I need to be president of my sorority to do good", "I have to get an internship or I won't get a job"... blah blah blah.
You guys, it just isn't the truth!!!!! We all know there are multiple ways to get to where you want to be. There isn't a right path and someone shouldn't be able to tell us this is the only way. We are unique. We have different talents. And we need different things in our lives to make us the best version of ourselves possible. That doesn't look the same for everybody, so why should the steps to going to college and getting a job look the same for everyone too, right?
Before school let out for the summer, I felt so angry. Like I wasn't going to ever compare to people in my field of work because I don't have the best experience or I am not doing what they are doing to get noticed. I felt like a failure. I had the wrong mindset about success and especially the success of other people. I am still working on it, but as this summer has gone on I have started to get in a better place about it all.
Taking this break is what I needed. It was how I was able to get to a better place with myself, to truly ask the questions I needed to ask. I want to encourage you all to take the leap of faith of whatever your heart is telling you you need to do or not do. You know what is best for yourself and YOU can make your dreams happen in YOUR OWN way.
Be you. Be happy. Be free.
Much love babes.